THIS IS A TIGER,DEAR!!!

I love my husband a lot.

“..please do not love me for you are loving me for the wrong reason. Breathe when the tide gets super high and hold onto this particular pillar (faith) and believe in yourself that you will get it far. And one particular day, there will be a man. a man who will knock you out with every little thing that he do and that particular man will be the reason to why you hanged on tight. Close your eyes now. Think of the stars and the lullabies that i sang to you for all this while. Never lose faith, i am no longer a figment in your dear fragile thoughts. I love you but i am not your destiny. Count together with the Stars and when you are ready, open up your beautiful eyes…remember i am no longer in you.not even a figment in your thoughts….”  - circa 2007

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thank you. i am much better now. i no longer hate you.
right?

 

many years ago & still counting, i feel in love with my culture. too deeply that i nearly got myself a man there.
(don’t get me started) one of the few things that i somehow got really in love with is there music. and this particular music.
i am mad. mentally mad.
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Nurul&Tauhid's Wedding card!

it’s finally here. the long awaited card that matters in my heart. never would it come into my mind that one fine day, i would really get married and have something as simple as this. 10yrs of crazy relationships and finally God, granted me one fine human to take care of me forever till death really do us part but than again, we will still reunite after death. that’s my love for him.it has been a long journey for both of us to await the grand date. thank you to friends & families who has always been there for us. both good and bad times.

i only pray that the day would be as smooth as my journey to see the Almighty.

Bismillah.

xoxoxo, Nurul H. Darma

cafergot making me damn cranky.

sometimes i wish,

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i could be more happier than this.

92 more days and i’ll be a wife to an idiot.
yeah, i choose this idiot to be my lawful husband.
yeah, this idiot is the very idiot who helped me when i am at my lowest.
yeah, this idiot is the one who always make me laugh & smile at the very same time he pissed me off.
yeah, this idiot is the very same one who would joke about when i say i am in pain due to menstrual pain.
yeah, the very idiot who spent more time & extra moolah on his friends & his dragonboat ambition.
yeah, the very interesting idiot who has already named our unborn kids.

yeah yeah yeah yeah, i guess it takes another idiot to know another idiot..right?

one of those many songs that will pierce through your heart.

post night syndrome. i been on night shift for almost a year.
i am not used to sleeping on a weekday. yes, i tried force-sleep
but it just wont work on me. naproxen is not helping to ease my
migraine. yes, migraine always come by right after post night.
i tried relaxing but damn hell it get me more awake.

so, here i am sitting in the corner of my bed in the darkness..
figuring out what to do with my crazy life with nothing but
paolo nutini voice soothing me away.
maybe the wedding preparation is making me crazy and hence all the
tightness around my shoulder and this stupid long night.

le sigh.

“I love no one but you, I have discovered, but you are far away and I am here alone. Then this is my life and maybe, however unlikely, I’ll find my way back there. Or maybe, one day, I’ll settle for second best. And on that same day, hell will freeze over, the sun will burn out and the stars will fall from the sky.”